I just feel like pushing pause on life and just taking a break for a while. Everything is just so confusing now, it makes me upset knowing that tomorrow may not be different. I was just thinking today about how everything before was different, i had guidance, courage,confidence and stamina to just live life to the fullest. But something died inside me.. i remember those days when i would hang out with my friends and we would all cry, laugh and talk about what was missing inside of us. Now, i lost my best friends, my good friends and the rest em, well they are living their life the way they want to. I feel like here in this life i'm living i have no purpose, no need. That is why i feel like the military i would be part of something big that i would be able to accomplish and make my family proud.
Lets just say, im the doubt in the family. and it hurts because not even my OWN family has faith in me, what makes you think i'm going to believe that anyone else does?
ugh it just gets hard to move forward when i cant even let go of the past.....
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